The Brighter Side

Have you ever witnessed yourself fading away, and you don't like the person you're becoming? Where once you were the easy-going, bubbly, happiest person to this introverted, gloomy, trying to be a happy person? You question every time something good happens to you because you've been on the dark side for so long that you see the fleeting happiness as an illusion?

Have you ever been guilty for being happy? One minute you feel happy but the next minute you don't feel like yourself? You start reminding yourself of all the worst things that have happened to you and push yourself into the darkness... because somewhere between fighting to stay in the light to being pushed into the dark by the very people you loved with all your heart. You start learning to survive in it, you start accepting the darkness, embracing it, and, eventually, it becomes a part of you while your inner child, who was so full of life, is screaming inside to see the light.

Have you ever given your best smile throughout the day, but once you come home and lock that door, that smile fades, replaced with numbness? The numbness that you find oddly comforting, but you're also trying to fight against it?

Have you ever contradicted your own feelings? You feel weirdly comfortable in the darkness because that's the limit, and no one can push you anywhere further down, but you hate that you're doing this to yourself, and you want to be a better person, you want to heal, to trust again, to love again, to be you again? The "You" you loved, the "you" that's actually you and not this person all these people made you into?

Darkness can be comforting, but sometimes coming out of that comfort zone could show you an entirely different world where you won't regret coming out of them... If you're struggling to see the brighter side, keep fighting because you deserve to be on the bright side where you can love with your whole heart and not regret them.

You deserve all the love and the light.

With Love

One who's fighting my way back to the bright side